Voices from the other side

When I am tired, I would curl myself up somewhere. I would try to sleep but couldn't. After awhile in that state, a strong feeling would build up inside me. I wanted to scream and my heart would feel like exploding. I have this compulsion to burn myself out; to really push myself physically; believing that it is impossible for me to self-destruct. In the end, I do nothing and that weariness remained. It felt like that I had a "cloak of invincibility" and that I had put it on and then taken it off again. It is strange to be caught up within the two extremes of emotions as if I am living in a void.

Words filled my mind uncontrollably. I will not be able to sleep until I write it down.

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夢にだけ
君を会えます
風に花

yume ni dake
kimi o aemasu
kaze ni hana

only in dreams
I can see you
flower in the wind
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I don't really know what I meant by that.