Accumulated Fatigue

Had physical symptoms for depression: hand tremors, nausea, fatigue, headaches but this time no negative thoughts or extreme emotions maybe it's an indication that my training is working. Will need to sleep through this.

the way

人間の道を諦めって、
狼の道に従って。

ningen no michi wo akiramette,
ookami no michi ni shitagatte.

Abandon the way of humans and follow the way of the wolves.

14 climbs in 6 hours

Breakfast: pasta and flavoured tuna. Replenish fluids with Gatorade.

Start time: 1100 End time: 1700
Climbing condition: Hot with occasional cool breeze. Suffering from early morning diarhea from last night's Shorinji Kempo BBQ.

Surrender (19): 2 laps: 1st lap 0 falls, 2nd lap 4 falls. Start time: 1105 End time: 1200

Kiwi (20): 3 laps: 1st lap 1 fall, 2nd lap 0 falls, 3rd lap 1 fall. Hit zone1 on climb 4 Start time: 1215 End time: 1330

After the Gold Rush (20): 3 laps: 1st lap 0 falls, 2nd lap 1 fall, 3rd lap 1 fall. Hit the zone2 on climb 7. Start time: 1350 End time: 1500

Past the Bosch (17): 3 laps: 1st lap 0 falls, 2nd lap 2 big falls, 3rd lap 1 big fall. Big fall occurred because rope was dragged up as well. Starting to lose hand grip because of fatigue and heat on climbs 10 & 11. Start time: 1520 End time: 1600.

Halva (16): 3 laps: no falls. Cramps starting to set in on arms during climb 12 but did not stayed so completed climb 13 & 14 as well. Start time: 1630 End time 1700.

Total number of climbs: 14
Total number of falls: 11
Total length: 280 m
Total time: 6 hours

Calluses on fingers and toes.

12 Climbs in 4 hrs: Entering a higher level of Consciousness

Weather Excellent for climbing today. Start time: 0745 End Time: 1200 Duration 4hrs
Surrender (19): 2 laps 1 rest on each lap
Kiwi (20): 2 laps no falls
After the Gold Rush (20): 2 laps no falls. Entered the Zone in climb 5.
Past the Bosch (17): 3 laps no falls. Entered the next zone in climb 9. Didn't know there was another level.
Halva (16): 3 laps no falls.

Total 12 laps = 240m

Doing for the zone!!

9 climbs in 3 hours

Start Time: 08:00 End Time: 11:30 Duration: 3 hours
Kiwi (20): No falls
Surrender (19): 4 falls at the top
After the Gold Rush (20): No falls
Past the Bosch (17): No falls 3 laps
Halva (16): No falls 3 laps

Total climbs: 9
Four rests total in between climbs.

Climbs 7, 8 & 9 on Halva were the best because I was too tired to care about falling or anything else. (In the zone and relaxed)

There are two things which can motivate, that is Marcia and the hatred for my own existence.
This climbing session was dedicated to the latter.

Bubuchan's first nightmare

After arriving home last night at 10:30, I was about to go fo a shower and go to bed when Bubuchan came downstairs to talk to me. She was quiet and I ask what the matter was, but she didn't tell me. The lights to the house was off apart from downstairs and her sisters and mum had gone to bed. Then she started to cry. I took her out to the lounge and comfort her.
As I massage her back with the tip of my fingers, I asked her, "What's the matter?"
She continued crying.
I asked her, "Did you have a bad day at school?" because I knew she hated her teacher. She' in grade one and had already wagged school far too much.
She said,"no."
I asked her if her sisters or mum did something to her, but she said, "no."
They were all asleep.
I asked her if she was sick and touched her forehead to see if she had a fever.
but she said "no."
She said that she had a bad dream but she doens't know why.
I told her that sometimes if something bad happens during the day or if she was sick she would get a bad dream.
I asked her to tell me about her dream but she couldn't remember.
I told her that everyone gets bad dreams. Her sisters used to wake up crying at night from bad dreams. But sometimes they laughed in their sleep too.

When we saw her dad drive into the driveway, I told her to talk to him about it if she wants to, but she went to bed.

Marcia and her Ice-cream

Ever since I started spending time with Marcia, my life had changed. We never ring each other and hardly contacted each other by any other means, but everytime we met at the cliff we ended up doing things together after climbing. She may have planned to do something but she always invited me along. I love the spontaneity of it. These things are usually stuffs that although I have lived in this city all my life I would never do on my own or with anyone else. Last weekend, we went to see "Pride and Prejudice," yesterday I forewent shorinji kempo training to go to the beach with her at Surfer's Paradise. We sunbaked on the beach and talked a lot. Before we went home, we went on a quest to find Marcia's favourite ice-cream on the Gold Coast. After having walked for awhile, she gave up and settled on a compromise ice-cream. It made a $3.00 hole in her wallet, but the ice-cream only filled up a $1.50 hole in her stomach.
On the train back we talked some more, but the ice-cream still dominated her mind, so I promised to buy her one when we get back to Brisbane. It had to be the one she liked: the "Gelita Italia Lemon sorbert cone." We got off at Southbank and proceeded to walk to West End where she had bought the ice-cream last time. Eventually we found it. And she was happy.

Spending time with Marcia requires a lot of walking. But I am happy with that.